holding back love

I was home alone yesterday. Pye was on duty, the kids watched Madagascar 2 with their Tita Malu while our house help, Bebeth was at SSS updating her payment contributions. I have nothing else to do but stay home. After spending few hours blogging and chatting with some friends at YM, I watched a replay of "Shopgirl" featured in Third Row at 2nd Avenue.

PLOT SYNOPSIS
by: Wikipedia

Mirabelle Buttersfield, a transplanted Vermonter, is an aspiring artist and saleswoman at the evening gloves counter at Saks Fifth Avenue in Beverly Hills. Her quiet, orderly existence - filled with both the mundane (futon furniture and an aging pickup truck) and the serious (a large student loan and a supply of antidepressants) - is disrupted by the sudden appearance of two disparate men. Ray Porter is a considerably older, suave, well-dressed, wealthy, divorced logician, while Jeremy is an immature, awkward, socially inept, penniless twentysomething graphic designer for an amplifier manufacturer and aspiring typographer. Ray tells Mirabelle upfront that he does not intend for their relationship to be exclusive. Despite this lack of committment, she finds herself swept off her feet. The situation is further clouded when Jeremy falls madly in love with her; although she finds him considerably less desirable than his older rival, he is willing to offer her the promise of exclusivity.

Mirabelle and Ray embark on a lengthy affair, during which time Jeremy is working as a roadie for the band Hot Tears, whose lead singer Luther encourages him to improve himself and learn how to properly deal with the opposite sex via a number of self-help audio tapes. Mirabelle is devoted to Ray, who showers her with affection and expensive gifts. During a business trip, he has dinner with an old girlfriend and sleeps with her. Mirabelle is crushed when he confesses to his indiscretion.

She eventually forgives him, and they continue to date until Mirabelle finally admits to herself their relationship never will have the permanence she wants because Ray cannot love her. She leaves Ray, quits her job at Saks, and becomes a receptionist at an art gallery. Jeremy reenters her life and they rekindle their relationship while Mirabelle is invited to display her work at an exhibiton. Ray attends, and although aware that their relationship is over, reveals that he has come to realize that he did love her. For his flaws, Mirabelle is happy with Jeremy who is able to offer himself to her unconditionally.





I know of someone who can relate to this story yet I preferred to keep her identity for some reasons. Holding back love for a person is never a fair game. If you love someone, you have to show it and express the feelings in any way you desire or for whatever it takes. It can never be questioned but can be answered... by simply doing what your heart dictates.